Someone Else's Loss

10:45 AM

I wasn't sure if this was something I should share.

I felt sad when I learned that you passed on.

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You were a part of my life that I wasn't always ready to face, you reminded me too much of him.
I spent too much time with him admiring your work, your brilliance, dreaming that we'd be able to ask you to do our eulogies.
So much that it feels you're like his horcrux minus the murder and black magic.

You who showed how it was okay to be a little more crazy than society would suggest.

I always thought you'd be the kind of dad who'd drive beside a grass fire just so we could burst out the other end, pretending this was an action movie. Then you'd say "That was a very stupid and dangerous thing to do!" while laughing until we had runner's stitch.

At a very young age I was able to understand that some people are better parents on their own. That I was going to be okay. All that while your fake boobs burned and and ongoing crash course about dinosaurs.

Lastly, you gave me a reason to write. I don't do it regularly and my grammar sucks in many occasions, but that part is my fault. To woo. To go about to see a girl--or boy in my case--that was all you.

It must have been very hard. I hope the pain has stopped now.

Maybe if we all have someone to give us a spark to hold on to. Someone to say "Stay. I'd like you to keep trying for me"
Because we can only give that to others, never to ourselves. Maybe, just maybe if we keep on doing that, we'd have enough for everyone to keep a fire going.

I have no idea what it's like to go, to leave everything and find what's really out there---or the lack there of.  But I know what it's like to be left behind.. There is not one second of it that I didn't like. So if it's not too much to ask, it'd be nice if you didn't have to go.

It doesn't help that you left the same day someone special in my life did. Wherever you are sir, thank you, for sharing your spark.

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